14th April 2015

2015 marks the virgin trip vacation over sea. With so much excitement in discovering how is life like out there. A brand new experience a new life. 13th April 2015 departed from KLIA to BKK.

People here are friendly and heart warming in general. The streets, the bars and lodging is just basically dirt cheap. When i say cheap I mean it is really really cheap. Cheaper than you ever expected.

One incident that really leave a deep impression for Thailand. An incident that really can remind me to always be grateful for what I have.

I happened to drop by a Gogo Boy showcase with the company of my friends. I met this person ny the name of Kong. He is Gogo Boy. His eyes are stunning accompanied with the sweet smile. What is so special about him. I can really tell you that I have no idea. But he is just so darn adorable.

With the opportunity provided we went out. It was awkward in the beginning but as time goes by we seemed to get along. I too got the opportunity to asked him a few personal question. First question run through my mind. Why are u in this industry? With 21 of age? Why would you waste your time working in such industry?

The answers he gave is typically what other sex service personal would give. But the only difference that presented really changed the way I looked at this industry, despite being born in a poorer family and with the hunger for education. He did not steal nor abuse the opportunity provided. That is the only difference that i saw that me stand in awe and i felt so much empathy for him. Money indeed is important for him but he chose to maintain his self dignity and respect. Of course he get paid in the end without even any hanky panky stuff. Just clean chats and laughter.

I sincerely wish all the best for you. Hope to see you again soon. 

Ugliness

Been six months in Singapore and I really had a hard time coping up with the paste. People are not as nice as what they potray. Mask are put on and awaiting you to discover what are they hiding beneath those pretty eyes and sweet mouth. Their ugly and hideous soul are yet to be discovered.

As time goes by, I learned to be more careful on who I trust in this working society. As time goes by, one thing I realise. Colleagues can never be your friend. They will pretend that everything is fine and one day they will be over your heads. Wanting to serve a death sentence. People will try so hard to.put you down even when they need to sacrifice their conscience just to get favours from others. They are like hungry wolfs waiting for the right time to attack and kill you. Some people who claims to be your friend ends up being your worst enemy in the workplace. You never know what they did behind you. By the time you realise it, it's already too late. Too late to salvage what you have sow.

Sometime it is so much better to keep things to your own especially when you are working with a bunch "friendly faces". You can never know what is coming.

But no matter how hopeless you are. They will get what they sow. The bad deeds and those hatred they sow. They will get it as the righteous one above will personally take revenge on the behalf of me.

The truth of them will yet to be discovered. Exciting isn't it?

Last of College

Do you still remember the days when you first entered college, those unfamiliar faces that which just smiled at you. Those greetings from our seniors, those heart warming welcoming speech given from the stage. The ice breaking moment which you felt so embarrassed about? The time when you first shakes the hands of a total strangers which gonna get stuck with you for the rest of the 3 years?

Now it is a official closing for all of us. Batch July 10 will and forever be my pride. We are well known by our lecturer to be the most notorious and noisiest class compared to the rest. With so much fun and joy it is now an official closing ceremony for all of us.

So much of happiness, anger, tears blended within. It was never a matter of how much mistakes you made in the college years but to enjoy and strive for excellence in our college years. Arguments was never a hindrances for us stop lending each others a hand in completing our assignments. Racial issues was never an issue in our class. Working together in practical was the most memorable time of our life. Making patient cried during our last day of our practical was the most awesome task we did.

During end of each semesters, burning midnight oil just to get us pass the exams. Late night groups studies ending up gossiping each others always happen. Just before the exams start complaining about not putting enough afford on doing revision. As soon after exams worrying about for not getting even a pass for exam seems like a every time. But in the end still ended up passing the semesters.








Sleeping in class and escaping class, got our warning letters. Warning to get barred from exams. Some student just enjoyed doing it. But in the end still never get barred from exams. Well, either the lecturer is merciful or they are just some dumb luck. I don't know.

Assignment presentation are always boring. Some found a more entertaining way to made the presentation more fun. Making videos for our presentations with our semi broken English was never an easy task to stand in front of the camera. Those hard work paid off when we saw the whole class just broke into tears just because of the retarded videos.

During weekends renting a half day car to the nearby beach for vacations. Gosh, miss those days when we just sit there for picnic under the bright hot sunny day. getting sunburned together, laughing and yelling each others name because we had gone too far. Those are the most wonderful memories.

Those days seems like yesterday. Well, welcome to reality. We are graduating soon. Hope these wonderful memories together will last for a life time. Keep it and never forget it. No matter where you are. You all had played a wonderful part in making a history in Nilai University.  Hope to see you all in our graduation on 24th August 2013!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BR_DFMUzX4E

The Harder You Strike, The Tougher I Stand

2013 has been a tough year for me personally. With LJM coming soon and all those shits going on and it is like a Taifoon sweeping across the land. So much things got reap apart as it passes through. Green fields bloomed with flowers and things that build on the ground got ripped apart leaving a wasteland behind. Bleeding with so much pain and anger deperately needing to be relieve as soon as possible.

I may seem to be a failure n a humiliation to you now. But trust me. I will stand up and make you stand in awe again. This is never an end of me. It is just the begining.

A great thank you for all tbe storms I come across and a very big sweet juicy FUCK YOU for screwing up my 2013!

Post National Service

4 years has pass since the last time I saw those familiar faces that I saw every morning in the field. Those semi-closed clam eyes just look so irritating but memorable.  Forced to sing the Wira Wirawati song very early in the morning in the field. Going to class and practice marching is just like an everyday must for us. But now it seems so so so far away. Leaving those sweet. sour memories in the back of our minds. Sometime it still haunt us in our dreams. Thought meeting up with each other seems like a dream until a few days ago.

"Owh wait do you remember the pretty girl? the one with big boobs! " Hahahaha. Familiar voices that you will hear everyday. Finally i got to hear it again once. with my own ears.

Meeting you people again is a miracle with all of us busy with our own hectic life. Striving for money and some for education.

Sincerely hope that we can comtinue to keep in contact no matter where we are.

Rest in Peace

I remember how you rang the call bell just to make me sit down to listen at your stories and your pass when you are lonely with no relatives around.

You made my day. You make me smile and laugh.

Changing your diapers when I was incharge of you seems like a must for me. But no complaints have I made because I got a chance to have some private moment to hear you telling me how worried that you may go anytime.

When you hold my hand and tell me I did a awesome job, it was like a rainbow in a very rainny day. With so much work and stress you made my day wonderful as I cannot imagine.

I remember how you came into the ward with the very unhappy face. But with a smile and sincere heart from all of us. You changed into a very open person and funny person.

Now there will be no more sorrows and pain as you have drifted through the valley of death and sickness. May you rest in peace. You sincere thank you and smile will never be forgotten. You have gave me the courage and passion to make another person's day beautiful no matter facing life and death.

Rest in peace my friend.

Dedicate to Mat Rais. (4th Nov 2012)

My Source of Attitude

This is about the story of how I learned the most valuable lesson in life throughout this 22 years on living.

People who know me personally knows that am somehow different. Am soft compared to the others. From young I was being picked by the seniors as the target to picked on as I was one of the timid and skinny boy when I was in junior school. Some more with soft attitude. What more to say, it is a great target of being picked on. Due to that am rather low in self esteem. Never dared to take up any bigger challenges in life. I always think that the world is against me. I remembered once, one of my classmate handed me a penknife telling me to end my pathetic miserable life. That is how I grew up in. Giving up life seems to be the easiest way out at that moment. But I was too timid to do it.

From young. I was known to be very talkative. Keeps talking non-stop. Especially with a few girls sitting around me in class. We did a lot of silly things. I remembered we drew comics of the PowerPuff Girls. That the best memories that I have in my Junior  School. Other than that I can say that I have no any sweet memories in my Junior school. All I can remember is all the bullying, teasing and all the nicknames that has been given. 

As I graduated from my Junior School. I was rather excited. Thinking that I can finally leave this dreadful place. But I was wrong, history repeated itself. Of course no more drawing comics. I told myself one day I will change who I am. Instead of being bullied but the other way round. I started by finding ways to get close to all the teachers in High School. Of course it worked out though. Am well know in that High School even until today. If you mentioned my name in that particular school, I dare to say mostly the teachers recognize me. At that moment I thought things will change. But it did not.

I'm always a soft hearted person. Bearing grudges is not my nature. Being hot tempered for a long period too was not me. I tend to lend helping hands to those who even bullied me in high school even knowing I may get bullied by them again anytime. I dared to say, I was very frustrated because I cannot achieve what I wanted to be. So I sorted ways out to escape including committing suicide .

Heaven always has a way to comfort his children. He put mother nature as my neighbor to lend a helping hand. Often with all the frustration I ran into her arms to let it all out. I can sit by the lake for hours sobbing  and telling away all my grieves and frustrations into the air .In the same time of comforting me, she too taught me some valuable lessons that not everyone can have.

Sometime sitting alone by the lake you can see animals coming out from the bushes to refresh themselves by the lake. Deer, wild boars, monkeys and etc. Some you even have the chance to touch it. At the beginning it was hard to reach out your hands to touch something that not much people had done before except in the zoo. You need guts. As time goes by, I learned how to be brave and pursing gentleness in the process. Too rough they may retreat or take you as a treat and started attacking. In the same time, I too learned how to be patient. Sitting by the lake, waiting for hours to get a glimpse of some monitor lizard coming out from the wasteland to scavenge for left over around the area. I learned patience while in the process of waiting. The foremost lesson that I learned from mother nature is never judge from the toads. They are really ugly creatures. When I was a kid. I did many hurting things to them, I remembered after a fight with my mom I was so angry till the extend of making a toad swallowing pebbles. Now I really felt sorry for it. The pebbles was in its tummy for days before it died. It still hide under it’s favorite spot until the event of its death. That time, I thought they are just pest loitering around the housing at night making all sorts of noisy commotion at night after the rain has gone by. I regard them as pests with no benefits. Until one day, I learned that they are actually the one responsible for clearing blood sucking bastards around the areas providing me a good night sleep with less mosquitoes bite. I really regretted for doing so at that point of time. But it doesn’t change the fact of they are ugly but without them, I will be sucked dry by those vampire at night. Because of that, they are beautiful in their own way.

After all these, it makes my life more interesting. I am not afraid anymore. They are just your neighbor which accidentally came into the wrong place. Handle them with care and respect. 

In the same time, if not for mother nature’s valuable lesson, I don’t think I can possibly be a nurse. Patient praise my gentleness and kindness  *not to show off though*. But deep down  know. I was not a person like that if all these never came to pass. All thanks to my mother who taught me what gentleness is all about and to overcome my fear of things am not familiar with. 

Today my old friend visited me in my hostel. Causing a lot of commotion. Imagining all the boys are yelling just it came into the house. How foolish and shameful  is that?! They are not going to cause any harm. Thanks them you won’t have sleepless night because of those blood sucking bastards flying around in your room! Stop screaming like a bitch when you saw a cockroach in your room!

“ In case you are reading this. Stop bitching about it. You have a big mouth but a small dick. Stop yelling when some animals came into the house. It is not a tiger! It’s just a toad! “

There is Always Miracle.

Recently things are going quite bad for this couple of weeks. Shit happens as it always does. Too many heartache and headache.

Anyway, not everything had gone so bad till the extend of not having a fruitful and productive life.

Recently there's a patient in the female ward. We called her Bed 8. She had a traumatic brain injury. We had been paralyze from head o toe. No so speech nor movement for the past few months. She too had a craniotomy done on her left parietal skull. She suffered a serious intra-cranium hemorrhage (Lament term: Internal- skull bleeding).

I was placed in that ward practically. Not directly to take care of her. As a nurse you tend to be very busy body. So am too kepo to check her out while my friend is preforming her daily ADL. I got to say, my friend did a great job for keeping her clean.

After reading her profile. I took pity on her. So I went towards her and tried talking to her. Which is kinda silly you may think especially when you talk to someone who can't even reply your conversation. I believe God did left me a good start for her healing process.

After 2 days, we changed our patient in-charge. I volunteered to take care of her. We did pedicure and manicured on her. Now she is really spotless. While doing the procedure, songs of worship came into my mind. So I started singing softly by her bedside. I prayed silently hoping that God will heal her no matter what is her condition and how severe it is. Before I finished the procedure after 5 hours, I put up all my courage and ask her does she wanted a prayer. If she don't want, she can just ignore while am praying for her. If she wants, she can follow me in her spirit. So I prayed.

This goes on, praying for her and singing to her when am free for one week plus. One day....


While feeding....

Her arms moved!!!!!

I was like... LITERALLY JUMPING OFF THE CHAIR..(due to my height I need to sit down to feed her through her PEG)

I was like OMG! She moved!


After informing almost everyone in the ward, I went back to her and ask her as if she wanted a prayer for accepting Christ in her. Yes, she is still mute....

On the last day in that ward. While we are cleaning the tracheotomy. With the gauze cover on the tracheotomy while cleaning. Honestly, it is a very uncomfortable procedure. Imagine something is stuck in your throat all the time and you can't seem to get it out. She mummured... NO.. in mandarin. We heard her. God, what a miracle you have done. Although I didn't get to see her get healed totally until today. But am still pretty sure something will happen to her. She will get heal! Amen to that.

You may say that: " It is probably the medication." Let me answer you this, she is not in any medication, she is kinda just left there for her time to come. No relatives so don't give me the crap of saying that someone gave her medications. Even if there is medication, why does it did not work as months goes by? Why now?! Why this?! If this in not a miracle then what is it?! Tell me!

In this testimony, God showed me how much He appreciated everyone of us. No matter when you are sick or healthy. Rich or poor. He loves and care for you. You saw the seed and God makes it grows. We human are limited living creatures. That's all. We don't have super powers unless you are in a game. LOL! Only God has the healing touch.

Please do help me continue pray for Bed 8 if you are reading this. A million thanks for those who are willing. May God himself bless you abundantly

Backstabbers

With almost 2 years I have shown patiences, forgiveness and trust in you. I sincerely thought you have changed to a better person. A person who I though you will have the understanding towards things and people who don't always go in your way.

But

I now realise

I was wrong.

You haven't changed abit. But you have gotten worst. All these while I though you only have a big mouth. But now I realise there is too much pride in you.

I trusted you. I shared almost everything that I learned in life to you. I don't hide a thing from you. Am transparent infront of you. Instead of getting an understand yet you created another laughing stock to the others.

Today, I, Aron Ang learnt a lesson. Never ever trust someone fully. Not even friends that you once called brother.

Trusting him is like giving your only dagger to him. Giving him an opportunity to stab you when you needed him the most or even kill you with it.

Am not asking for any attention and your apology here once again. I tried to warn you but now you seems to have so much pride in you till the extend of not being clear who you are meant to be. So now we have to depart in our own way.

If you are reading this. I just wanna say thank you for hurting someone's feeling so much till the extend I can learn how to let someone go. I seriously hope too for Judith. But am sure she loves you too much and she is not willing to let go. She is willing to let love and sacrifices blind her in order to make you love her. One day things will change am sure when kept taking things for granted and kept giving people shit to clean after.

So please give me back my dagger so I can give it to someone I can trust once more. It ends now!

p/s- I know now I sounded like a drama queen. But this post is for myself and I seriously think that being childish n weak once in awhile is nessary.

When Your Heart Remains True

Life as we know it has been cruel. Nonetheless, it is an enjoying journey of give and take. Full of sorrows and grieves. Not to mention there are still happiness and joy comes along this wonderful package.

People come and go. No one stay. Everyone is a visitor in this earth. We don't stay for good.* common sense* Everyone just have to die. But what never dies... Friendship, Love, Memories, Good and bad ones. 

I was working in HDU * Hemodialysis Unit* last 2 weeks ago. It was really boring. Not much procedure to do. So, me and my other course mate started this brilliant and fun idea of observing people. 

Until

This old couple came along.

They are holding hands as they came in. An old couple. Still so romantic

He opened the door for her as she walks in first. How often do you see this in an old couple life?!

He knows she is weak.

He took her blood pressure. Which is normally being taken by their own. We require them to do it their own. But he did it for her.

He set up the machine himself without any help from us?! 

Hello?! In case you don't notice, there are so many tubings and procedures that needed to be done before she can go on with the process of dialysis. 

Yet he knows what to do and how to do. Until the finishing touch.

He sat her down. Prepared her meal for her. He waited till the nurses start the procedure then he leaves home to do her house chores. 

Every time of when she need to do follow up he will book at cab for her which cost RM15 per trip. They don't own a car but a motorbike. He will put her in a cab and came with a motorbike on his own. Before the procedure ends, he will surely be there to make sure she enter the cab and then leaves home. 

This is what love really is. It is not about flowers, properties, cars, nor money. It is about being there in times of needs. Be with them , be there for them when he or she is sick.  Like this loving old couple. 

Am not a preacher about love. Am not a love guru. But this uncle surely deserves to be one. He had shown the true meaning of what love it. He action has touched us and am ready to share it to the whole world of his actions. He had shown us....

What true love is about. 

This Is It

Life brief candle. Human life burns like a candle. It will be out before you know it. In awhile you will realise you are standing outside your cold calmy body wondering what and where will your next destination takes place.

My patient was well and alive. He was admitted due to fever. After discharged, he was well and able to live a normal live once again.

Just after two weeks. His daughter called me. HE WAS GONE. IN A BETTER PLACE.

He did lived a meaningful and fruitful life. Raised 3 well grown sons n daughter. Am sure the time he left this earth, his legacy still lives on.

He is not just my patient but my friend. Although just barely know him for 3 days. His laughter and joy that he bears while on his bed is the biggest encouragement. His patience and his words of assurance to his children is the greatest legacy that will be shared one day. The gratefulness he shown for us makes us feel sweet while in this hectic and scenic job of ours.

Life is short. Treasure it. You will be gone before you even know it. Live life full with no regrets. Forget and forgive those who you called enemies.

Rest well my friend. Am sure you there are having a great moment now. Far away from this dreatful world with full of pain and sorrows. Someday we will meet in the other side.

A Weekend Well Spent

It has been two days.  But it feel like just a glimpse of an eye. Two days just pass so swiftly without even realising it.

What happened so far... it is not publicly shared.  But what can be shared is. I enjoyed myself. The road trip,  the pillow talk,  the teasing and all those which I thought I will no more have it in the days to come.

Even when you are so busy with your work while you are spending time with me.  Your effort of making a space for me is so much greately being treasure.  No matter talking to your elderly or giving you suggestion on your work. It has been a pleasure and my honour. 

It hard to find people pike this around me.  Sharing my joy and sorrows. Here I would like to take a chance to say....

THANK YOU AND I STILL LOVE YOU

One day in Sekinchan

Friday! The last of Community Health Nursing! The end of Mr and Mrs Idjit living next door. End of everything bad. End of the torture of not turning on my stereos for almost 2 weeks! Finally i get to say good bye to all of the nonsense that has been happening for this 2 weeks!

Okay, today am requested by my friend Zax to write in mandarin so he can understand better. Just once am going to write in Mandarin. So here goes...

又来到了周末。又是一个无所事事无聊的礼拜尾。所以答应了Zax回Sekinchan。一放工，立刻搭了最晚的那班车去了佛蓉。又搭了一个小时的轻快铁到了吉隆坡。总共花了快接近5个小时的车程。又在KL Central 花了差不多二十分钟找他。还没吃晚餐的我不会累死才假。

两个人就像盲头苍蝇在人海中飞来飞去。

吃晚晚后。就与他的陪同下回到了他的家-巴生

隔天差不多十点钟两人吃完早餐后就搭上了归家之路。

兜了，绕了，累了。就跑道网吧“休息”- 打电动！没想到--- 他输了！！开心死我！！*He says he wanna kill me tonight. Kinda worried actually.

玩完之后就跑道附近的餐厅上网。没想到既然来这里做工。唉。。可怜的上班族每天都被钱绑的紧紧。

咳~慢点就是我了

Come On?! Like Seriously?!

It's the 4th week since class has started and also the 3rd week of practicals. Everything seems to be heading to my way. Clinical Instructors are nice so does the staff nurses in the hospitals.

This is the freaking place which am talking about

This week we are moved from Jelebu to Bahau. Which both of them are still in Negeri Sembilan. I should say Bahau seems like a boring dead town to me. Population not more than 40k. People here are not as nice as Jelebu. People here seems to think more like "Urban-People". Mostly here are Chinese and malay which I saw.

Now do you get the picture when am saying villasge?!

The main reason why we * including my course mate of course* are shifted here because we need to fulfill our CHN *Community Health Nursing* crosses. First of all I would like to say. This District Clinic SUCKS to the max! Why?! BECAUSE THERE IS NO FOOD!! NO CANTEEN OR WHAT SO EVER! It is a freaking small clinic in the middle of no where! It is left stranded far from the main road for like 2.5 Kilometers! What more to say! IT IS FREAKING IN A FREAKING VILLAGE!  

And guess what?! it is in Jempol! Bandar Seri Jempol! God! Nilai UC you got to be kidding me! It is a totally different town!!

But what's best about here! Our Clinical Instructor she rocks!! *yeah, for the mean time because we just know her*. Hopefully this coming 2 weeks I better not be tortured by her or some kind. I don't know.

Anyway, hopefully things turns out fine for this coming 2 weeks! I don't wanna suffer! God! Freaking please just bring me out of this place! 2 weeks of patience which am asking for~

A Little Of "Rasa Sayang" from Jelebu

   

Jelebu Hospita

Am currently posted in Jelebu Hospital with another 13 July 10 students. 4 boys and 10 girls. We are being sent to a small and less populated hospital with less than a 100 beds including female, male and Pediatric ward. For us, it is the first time we are placed in a district hospital. Not much procedures to do due to all major case will be sent to Seremban. It is very boring since we are use to the busy-ness of a city hospital.

Klawang Township

Jelebu is located 1 hour from Seremban city center. You can take a 1 hour bus fromSeremban Terminal to this small town. The only transport service provider is City Liner. You will find yourself pack in a Sardin Can as soon you get on it. The first stop you will reached Klawang and the bus will stop at Titi. These both stops are in Jelebu itself.










Moving to a small hospital had been a great challenge for us. Especially moving into a small less populated town where even buying vegetables are indeed very troublesome. What more to say finding yourself a HotSpot where you can sit down and load your Facebook. You don't even need to mention about KFC and McD. People here will be laughing when you ask them where is the nearest fast-food store. *Seriously am craving for it* Imagine the finger licking good feeling.....




Okay, back to business.


What people always say:


A smile warmed up a person's day. Especially when it is from the heart.


Working here had been a great and difficult task for us especially when what you learn and practice, everything is in English. Imagine you are placed in a Kampung where people only speak Bahasa Melayu and Hakka. Of course there are still Chinese who can speak Mandarin. Our communication skills drop from "STIHS" to SHITS. But we are all still trying to cope with it.


Learning to speak more fluent and proper Bahasa Melayu takes time. Am sure by the time we learn how to communicate with them well, we had finished our practical.


So what can we do?!




Just

Sincere Smile from 3 races

Smile when you greet them




From a simple "Selamat Pagi Nek" -Translation: Morning Granny until "Nek Saya Jalan Dulu"-Translation: Granny, I leave first . A simple greeting or a simple good-bye, can always makes someone feels so much appreciated. What more to say when you greet them with a smile from a sincere heart. It holds the key to open up a person's heart.




"Insya-Allah adanya dik untuk jaga saya" -Translation: Praise Allah there is you to take care of me.




When this kind words born from a patient's lips, you know you had open their hearts and acceptance towards you. No matter you are Malay, Chinese or Indian. You had already gain their trust.




No matter how hard is it for us to communicate. Sitting down chit chatting with the patient had been one of our duties daily. Trying to get them to communicate with us had not been a hard task. 

The joy of Lunch Break

You should see them laughing without their dentures on. THEY ARE REALLY CUTE!!!!!.Unlike patients who are staying in town. They are always open towards conversation and procedures that are preformed. They never complaint and judge. They are able to give their 100 % trust on you. After preformed. Sometime they are still in pain*example-branula insertion*, they will still say thank you.


I personally feels that I am really blessed by this small town so much. People here are so awesome. Do you?! My fellow mate?! 

Undivided

Been so busy as 2012 started. Many things had came and left. Here I am now. Writing what is have I saw, what I had conquered, what had I failed and what had I learned. Time flies. Leaving hometown to Nilai had been two years ago seems like blinking an eye. One year more. One year. Give me one more year. So I can serve human race better.

This post based on my topic above is about what I felt in my heart. I hope people can understand why I chose this instead of the other. People may see things differently. Everyone has their own POV(Point of View).

Child care has been a booming industry since the 70's. Even nowadays government hospitals are recognize for their "Baby Friendly" hospitality. When I mention friendly means it is really friendly. Not the opposite*Just incase*. Well, am sure who are mothers out there are glad to know about this. You can see their motto on the wall of the hospital. Providing friendly service to the baby. That is a good thing.

Babies are cute, sweet and irresistible. They seriously are the most gorgeous "creature" in this human life cycle. They are naive and innocent. When a baby cries, you can see nurses rushing towards them to meet their needs. They will even make silly faces just to make the baby stop crying even they(Babies) are not even fully developed till that extend. Attention and care has been given. All eyes are on them.

But....

What about the old people?! Are they as cute as the babies? As adorable as them?

Am sure you all know the answers from your heart.

Why are they being left out? People always says Old as Gold. Really? Then why are they neglected? Why are there still nurses left them unattended? What's even worst. Yelling at them telling them to shut up. Yelling at them when they can't follow your instruction. This is a very common scene in Malaysia. Student nurse. When they are required to clean up and old sick patient's mess, where are you? You are suppose to provide undivided attention to them. They are often the ones who have been left out. What's even worst. Some patients are left there with their poops in their pants for 1 or 2 days. Imagine that old person is you. How would you feel?

Sons and daughters. Never even think that it is our job to take care of your parents when they are old and sick. They are apart of you. Where you came from. Be grateful. Do visit them once in awhile. Working is hectic. We all know. But please do spend sometime with them. They are not going to be long in this world. Treasure them. Love them. Am sure you will miss them someday if you are still human. They are the ones who raise you up and yet this is how you repay them by putting them in the hospital for weeks?

Old folks are adorable people too. They too have emotions and feeling. Some old people who have Alzheimer they tend to act like a kid. Some even may forget your name. Will you still keep the promise that you made when you are still a kid to take care of them when they are old? Now is the time to fulfilled that vow that you had made. One day your turn will come and you will lie on white pale bed. begging for you children's attention. If you are never a good example, how can you expect them to not be the same like you?Think about it.

What Goes Around Comes Around.

Next time when you visit a hospital or an old folks home. Please do give them a smile or a hug. Am sure from the bottom of their hearts, they know that there are people who still cares for them. Talk to them. Keep them companied. Although they tends to be naggy sometime. Give them attention like how you give to your young ones.

Start making a difference today. You may never know~

Dealing with Chances

Sometimes when you look back and then look at your current situation now. You tend to find something is missing along the journey. It maybe your love ones, a smile from a very special person, a hug from a person and etc. Like what the Chinese said in the proverbs under the sun there is no never ending banquet or something like that.

Life is always harsh... Live with it. Bear with it. We are all in this world for a task. A task to make this world better. Yeah, there is always bastards who had tried to make this world a living hell. For example the government in Malaysia *am always against them* anyway.

Chances doesn't come by just a snap. It takes time. It's a long wait. A test of endurance of time. Then the chance come. *Snap!* Grab it! Poww!! That's how people succeed in their life. No matter in relationship, prosperity and etc. This also goes to happiness in life as well, no matter within family relationship or friendship. Parents should have grab their time to accompany their child when they are still young and at the time of need for you love and affection. Not till when they reaches high school and starting to be independent. That time you will be crying over spilled milk. Couples, treasure one another. Comparing with you *ex* doesn't make your relationship better. Treasure them. We don't live long in this world. Treasure him. Love him/her with all your heart with un-dividing love and affection. 

Friendships. We are not build up just like that. We are not friends if they are no chances for us to meet. If you are reading this, and you are a friend of mine. i would like to tell you, no matter how much your an asshole in my life, you still play a big part of molding my future. Here I would like to take this opportunity to say thank you for making me a better person. 

College life is gonna end soon. Meeting July 10 is just like yesterday. Meeting my MPW classmates is just like few hours ago. If that's not called chance then what is it called? It's a chance that the heaven gave us. A chance to build up relationship among us. A chance to do good to others, building and motivating others. Not a chance to spread hatred and discrimination. Our presentation in the walkway is just too memorable. The pictures we took and the message we shared. it's just too awesome to be missed.   

Love you peeps. For my friends who are gonna graduate soon. Please do remember da time we chatter together and gossips and rumors that we have spread. Who know this is the only chance we are ever gonna meet each other in future ahead. Stay strong my dear seniors. Stay tough!  God bless!

Watching The World From The Center

Leviticus 19:18 (New King James Version)
You shall not take vengeance, nor bear any grudge against the children of your people, but you shall love your neighbour as yourself: I am the Lord.

Matthew 19:19 (New King James Version)
'Honour your father and your mother' and "and you shall love your neighbour as yourself

Matthew 22:39 (New King James Version)
And the second is like this" You shall love your neighbour as yourself

Matthew 12:31 (new King James Version)
And the second, like it, is this " You shall love your neighbour as yourself. " There is no other commandment greater than these."

Luke 10:27 (New King James Version)
So he answered and said, " You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your strength, and with all your mind." and " your neighbour as yourself"

Romans 13:9 ( New King James Version)
For the commandments, " You shall not commit adultery", " You shall not murder", "You shall not steal", "You shall not bear false witness", "You shall not covet", and if there is any other commandment, are all  summed up in this saying, namely, "You shall love your neighbour as yourself.

Galatians 5:14 ( New King James Version)
For all the law is fulfilled in one word, even in this: " You shall love your neighbour as yourself".

James 2:8 ( New King James Version)
If you really fulfill the royal law according to the Scrpture, "you shall love your neighbour as yourself, " you do well.

In the bible, 8 times the Lord our Merciful and Loving God mentioned about loving your neighbour. We all Christians believes that what God said in the bible more than 3 times are really really important. loving your neighbour will make a harmony society. It is also a image of God our Lord. Our God is love and full with goodness. Before reading on, i would like you readers to have a open mind to continue reading, the following passage may make some readers felt uncomfortable with what am I gonna says. I sincerely believe what am I gonna say in the coming passage is true from my heart. it's about love for those Christians we are hating others without realising it.

We all know that wars are bad and it only cost lives and harmony among country. the United States of America is know as a Christian based country and with unlimited influences towards the Globe. Am sure there are majority Christians. but why would a Christian based world went to have war with Saudi Arabia after 911? is it spreading hatred? Revenge? All these are not from God. The Lord our God is a merciful God, and why they wanted to take this matter into their own hands? Why can't they just leave it to God? Now this is a very funny statement.

Today Malaysia too is facing a lot of problems. As we all know that recently a very disturbing issue has been raise in our controversial and conservative Islamic country. Seksualiti Merdeka promoting Gay Rights isn't it?! Okay. Now my point is this. As we all know that between Islam and Christians there are certain points in this 2 religion are the same. Am sure there are scripture in the Holy Quran did mentioned about Loving your enemy as yourself. BUT why this 2 religion are pointing their fingers at these activities. Yes, in Christianity did mentioned that homosexuality is an abomination. Same goes to not respecting your parents. War has been raise. Blackmail has been sent. Killing of voices are happening in Malaysia. hate mails to have been sent throughout from every country.

Malaysia as a civilise country. I do sincerely believe that. But why Malaysia is acting like barbarians banning this and that?! Love them. Why wanna bully this minority? Where is the love that all these religion preach? Christians and Islam shares a common thing right?! Love the people but not their sins. *Am sorry to LGBT community if you find this offending*. Love and understanding is the most essential element for creating a peaceful society. Stand in their shoes to look at this issue. Why are they fighting for this right?! Human rights?! People are dying! How many LGBT members are being bullied and kill throughout the globe?! Extremist Christians and Islam are killing people just because they are LGBT! Homosexuality in the bible is a sin and that's a fact. Sames goes to lying, making false witness, not respecting your parents. Then why do people wanna makes this a serious issue?!

The prove am saying this is founded in 1 Corinthians 6:9-11
Or do you know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be decieved: neither fornicators, no idolaters, nor adulterersm nor effeminate, nor homosexuals, nor thieves, not the covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor swindlers, will inherit the kingdom of God. Such were some of you but you were washed but you were some of you, but you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and in the spirit of our God.

All these are sins even getting drunk! Why Christians wanna emphasis more on homosexuality more than the other sins?! This is a very big misconception. According my personal experince, I do agree that homosexuality is not born from young. It is the effect from words and action from the surrounding that effects you. Hurts have been instill and gender confirmation. Who are the cause?! it is you! No matter parents and friends. Everyone is the cause of this minority people becoming gays! You are the one to be blamed for making them a homosexual.

You may say: " How?! What did I do?"
The answer is did u ever laugh and tease a person for becoming feminine? Your words have been affirming that person to be gay! Do you know that?! Word brings power! you can build him or you can just destroying a with a word! Most feminine boys are being bullied in schools do you know that. Children are hurt and being affirmed that they are gays. That's why they grow up being a homosexual!

How can we cure them?! Love of course. Accept them! Love them! Counsel them! not scold them or tease them even more! You eventually make them even worst! Be friends with them but not being friend to their doings~! Do not be homophobic! Homophobic actions are the main cause of causing them to be this way! You are the one to be blamed!!

To all of you who wanna make a change! Please accept them. Or if you wanna know more on how to help this people. Please do contact PLUC (Pursuing Liberty Under Christ) for more info at www.pluc.org.my.

Hoped On The Earliest Train To The North

Today is Monday!! We have class! And Oooppsss I skipped it again.. Well, family is around so that's the best reason to give my lecturer. Letters have been handed in by Roland the asshole. Now am in a train to the north.

Arlene is with me. She is busy taking pictures of herself. Too busy to see what am I what I writing about her... Yeah* 2nd glance t her she is starring at the window* Hmm~ weird girls.. That's what she is good in. Being a weirdo sometime..

Friends forever

Sitting down at a corner wondering what has past and what has yet to come. Life, itself is always full of surprises. Good or bad. Even sometime it may cost a scar in you life.No matter physically or mentally. This is what we usually called life. In life there is plenty of memories. Same. Good or bad. Sweet or sour. These are a big part of who we are now. An aggressive and hot tempered child was hurt in the past and cost him to live a life today. Same goes to everyone. We are who we are nowadays memories and flashback itself has a big part of it including how we are taught by our parents.

Today am writing about my perception towards my memories. Especially to my friends who I use to grow up with. Brian Chong Chang Chia, Jonathan Si Wei Hong, Tan Yong Seng, Teo Sau Fung  ang many more. Not to mention those who play a short while part in my life too like Mark, Shun Xian, Eric Soo and many more. These people who I just mentioned are the one who stood by me when I was a naive teenager. These are the brothers that I met in church. A total stranger at first and somehow they had played a big part in my life. 

As I can remember. Jonathan Si and Brian Chong are the one we did silly stuff with. No matter what we are always together. Doing crazy stuff which I would not mention in the public which is kinda awkward in a sense.  ( am sure u two who are reading this know what am I saying right?!)  They are always there for me when I am upset or when needed they will yell at me to wake me up from the self-pitying. (Gosh~ what a shame)....

I remember Tan Yong Seng and Ah Hong who are my great buddy to taught me how to love the Lord with all my heart. Drag me to church. Push me around to praise and worship... Ah Hong, he is the quiet type. He don't speak much. What je is good at is sitting there and laugh. Of cause we all 4 knew each other well, just that 4 of us seldom spend time togather hanging out. I remembered I went to Yong Seng's house for Karoake session. Boy.. It's fun! It's also in Youtube. Now thats ambaressing. 

What did I like about you guys?

Jonathan Si Wei Hong

Your da asshole in my life. You're are the one who is always with me no matter what. Remember I puke like hell in Fire?! LOL! Well.. do you have to tell everyone about it?! It's embarrassing. Of cause in my heart am so happy to have a friend like you. Am so grateful that you din't just dump me there alone. You are even willing to carry me into your car and send me back to my hostel. Until today, I can only have a little flashback about it. Not clear but still I know you are the mone who drag me along with Kok Thai. Sorry ar to mahuan you two.

Brain Chong

You are the one who is my first met best brother. Remember the time when you are primary 6. In the Santubong Family camp. When I think of it. OMG! How can I possibly think of doing that. Well, no matter what you are strong enough. You are never hurt about what I did. Well, I sincerely felt sorry for it. But I know it's a process of growing. And I remember we went for movie at Alakat... It was raining and I am driving(your car) OMG! It skid... LOL~ luckily it's not that bad.. If not.. Surely die liau la~

Tan Yong Seng

You baldness is what I am so encourage of. Remember that girl?! Hahahaha! You are one fucking person that embarrass me a lot. Want me to pass gift for her?! LOL~! That's one piece of shit! But no matter what bro. You are one big guy who teaches me to praise the Lord. Sincerely I hope that you  are what you preach like last time when you are on fire for the Holy Ghost!

Teo Sau Fung

You are one hell weird guy. You are well know for your 小强..LOL~ we did many things. But mostly all the interesting things you did are not when I am around. But thanks for being with me when I need a shoulder to cry on. Thanks bro. Although now you are in Japan and we are still in Malaysia. But I hope that our friendship will remains strong like it use to. 

To all my brothers! Friendship forever!