Back to Where I Belong

It's officially one day am at home. Honestly, it is bored. Gosh! So far I only cleaned the fish pond. Shit.. The filter spoiled. Now I have to go and get another one. The best thing to do is just sit outside staring at the open air with the sticks on hand. Watching the birds few by. Gosh~ Thats Nilai. Now am so far away from it.

The cool breeze from the 7th floor is always there for me no matter what time is it. I miss you Nilai! Life is always contra-dicting. Sometime you want something badly and when u got it, you regret of having it. That's life and the greed of a Human being.

Now since am at my hometown, I promise myself to make full use of the time. Hope that I would be able to do so~ LOL.

Okay, it's time for bed. Wanna have plenty of nice local food tomorrow.. will keep this blog updated!

A Shout Out for Today!

Less than 19 hours to go home. Mix feeling inside stirring. Because heard from my friend that I have been barred for my MPW exam because of absence more than 3 times. Honestly am not skipping for class for no reason. All the reason is am not well to attend class.

Tomorrow am gonna talk to the lecturer and see whats the next step. Of course get a confirmation too. Don't wanna waste anymore time.


Okay, enough with the bad part. The best part is 19 more hours to go! Sarawak , Kuching! Am coming! Kolo Mee, Laksa, Kueh Chap and etc.. wait for me!

To Emo-wers!

All people has their up and down in their life. Agree?! There is no people in this world can live calmly without storm in their life (referring to the first statement-LOL). It's a fuck up plan. That's why there is a phrase " fuck life it fucks you in the ass" .

Life is always cruel. it will never be satisfied when they see you living in your desirable state. Surely there will be something coming for you. Which rich man never been through financial crisis? Which handsome guys in this world never get reject by a girl in their life? I dare to say all of them does faces issue. Define facing issue?! It is when things don't go your way.

To me when you faces issue is totally depend on how u cope with the stress that life pun on you. During that time  each of us have different way of coping with it.

Nowadays youngsters tend to be "emotional" or you wanna make it sound cooler - Emo! Youngster always tough being emo is always cool when where u leaves all the world around you spinning you around without feeling the pain. Yeah. it is cool in a sense when you don't feel a single thing. But does it really apply to you when you are being the so called "emo".

In personal point of view. Youngster nowadays especially teenagers. Mainly teenagers loves to claim that they are emo. Why do I say so?! Okay~ lets look into some few post shall we?!

Trying best hard on doing the best i can...bt i had it all...enuf~ gonna let go...gonna b a person tat never regrets...never gonna rmb bout ur face...never do gonna rmb bout ur smile...m gonna use tiredness 2 treat away ur smile, ur touch, n everythg of urs...


Looks like i'm gonna do it agn like b4...~> A fake smile 2 my frens saying tat i'm fine.... its coming agn~!


Okay...i feel like crying everytime i look at u...its pain 2 feel tis...the pain returns agn...n agn...~


These are all real life post by some people in Facebook. Why wanna be so upset when stress? It's not the end of the world. Some post even worst. Said wanna end their life as soon as possible and yada yada. Am not trying to teach you guys cruel or trying or add on their burden. I will normally give them a reply back by. Go ahead and just kill yourself if that pleases you.

The so called "Emo" nowadays are not even the real "Emo" people. They are attention seekers in disguise. Why do I say so? isn't obvious? They want people to realize their existence. By saying something that is harmful to themselves and expecting people to call and care for them. everything is about me me me and me. People like this is not worth our care because all they want is just attention and would not want people's help. They kept on finding fault with others. An attention seekers just wanna receive and don't wanna give back to the society. When your friends expressing their hearts out, and attention seekers will keep on telling the one who is sharing how worst he ever encountered before. When people sharing good stuff, happiness, they will also tell that particular person a even bombastic situation. People like this will only 'put out" people's happiness instead of cheering them along~

Here is my advise to all so called 'emo-wers'. Go fuck someone else life. Please stay far far away from me. I won't wanna give u my care because I know it's not worth a single cent. Just go get a life and be happy with it. If you are so desparate to die. I am very willing to send to you KLCC and you can jump for there if that pleases you. A real Emo-wers will do so. So since you are a self claim emo-wer then am sure you have the guts to jump.

And to those who think Emo are so cool. Please think twice. Emo-wer has no Facebook or friends. They don't talk to others. they don't smile, laugh or giggles even it is really funny or just faking a smile to a cold joke. They don't even have feelings for pain. Can you do it? If you can't then you can forget about it. Because you ain't got the talent for being an Emo.

Here is my advice to all. Stay happy and give thanks to the heaven even when things don't go your way. It's a training for you to become a better person. Being  emotional for awhile is fine. Everyone has their down time and happy times. Focus more on the good things instead of the bad things in life. Life is worth celebrating not mourning it. Survival of the fittest. If you can't survive and being preyed by "life" itself, then you are a weak-link. Am not being prideful of myself nor critising  people. It's just that I don't find pleasure with fakers and attention seekers.

So fuck off you fakers!

Am Going Home

Holiday is around the corner in Malaysia. It's Hari Raya Adilfitri. Which means all Malaysian are having holiday. So do I as a college student. I have extended my holiday for an extra 3 days. LOL. Please don't blame me for that. Blame it on AirAsia. They don't have cheap flight on Sunday. To save my cost, the only option is to take a Wednesday flight back to Nilai. *Hope I won't get barred form exam* Hmm~


Before our holiday we have presentation going on Wednesday which is like tomorrow. LOL. Am assigned to make a guest book for people who are viewing our presentation on that current day. Our group members planned to wear Baju Melayu on that day. *Photo will be uploaded tomorrow as soon as the presentation ended.* To show off a little. This is the guestbook made by me~

Except for that, I have spend some extra time doing something to decorate my room~ It's really been sometime since am doing art works. I considered it as my hobbies. Unlike once I major a lot in it. I know it's simple. Thats why am loving it~

Okay, back to my flight. Am leaving on Thursday 8pm.. Will be at the airport around 6pm.. For those who are there that particular time. Do drop by and say 'Hi'. Would love to give ya a big hug if that's possible.

All for You My Brother!

My buddy who is here all these while. Problem are always around and he is always here to give me enough strength to carry on. A lot of confirmation from him for me to keep moving forward with a purpose. Despite all differences we do accept being who we are. Please don't get me wrong! He is my friend. Not my boyfriend. Please! Gosh!

His name is Roland Yap Zhen Yi. An annoying person from Sibu, Sarawak. He is a pain in the ass sometime. He is here outside my room now without knowing am here writing crap in my blog about him... Shhh~~ lol. He is a sound freak. Loves to show off his loud musics in his room with his Altec Lancing Speakers. He never get satisfied of his RM300++ speakers. keep on telling me he wanna get a better one. LOL

What makes me trust him so much is because he is always there when I needed help the most. Giving me advice on what I should do. Well, although I don't agree with all advises. But still there are points in all his advises. Everyone give different advises depends on their experience.

One thing about him is really have a big mouth. he can't keep secrets. So never ever share your secrets to him. Am sure the next day you will eventually saw it in the headline.LOL! But he really did improve in this point. It's a good thing. At least he show some improvement.

So I just wanna say bro! I love u as who you are despite our differences. You're straight and am not. Am proud that you can accept me for who I am. Thanks a lot! LOL.( Lots of Love).



Sincerely dedicated to Roland Yap Zhen Yi( still alive today) 

Life in Semester 3

It's been a long time since I updated my blog. Am so sorry for that. Quite busy lately. Am not gonna spend so much time telling stories here. Just the a few point as a reminder for me.

Semester 3 we all are required to take up MPW class ( Mate Pelajaran Wajib) incase you are wondering what is it. It's actually a syllabus which only Malaysians must go through in their college years.We are forced to take up Moral and Malaysian Studies.

Our main NUR this year is Gynecology. All about pregnancy.  Am not gonna tell ya all about what are we studying specifically because I don't even like that subject. Other than that we also took up management. Studying management is not as easy as ABC. It also requires a lot of practical skills and theory. Studying Human Behavior is always a tough problem for us. Team building and plenty more has to come. This year we are quite relax in sense.

Am sure this semester gonna be a interesting semester although the class sucks like hell. Lecturer loves to show us all those disgusting picture of delivery of the baby. *pictures are not for display here* LOL.

As Hari Raya Adilfitri is approaching there's plenty of activities are going in the college. Not to mention there's  a dancing presentation for our MPW coming up after raya. Thursday we gonna have a presentation on The London Covenant( Malaysian Studies) at the walkway of Nilai UC.

Apart of that. Sales are going around in Kuala Lumpur. We went shopping. Along with Roland Yap, Irene Ling, Mavis tan. Tiong Wen Wen and Jessica Yong. We really had an awesome time shopping in a wholesale store.

Isn't it wonderful seeing all the shoes for display,